Saturday, September 22, 2012


 Well I think these are in order and yes, they are crappy i phone pictures. I will get J to take pictures on my real camera....real soon. The first picture I took was at 14 week and it goes all the way down to 18 weeks. I am a little over 19 weeks now and I will post some good ones soon! The bump is slowly coming along but I still feel like I'm in the "Did she gain a little weight or is she pregnant" phase. I am enjoying the chubby phase because before I know it I am going to be wonder how I know this. Well, my mom got really big with all her no cute little bump at the end for me. I am going to be poppin! haha can't wait. Love this little guy so much already.  Justin actually said to me the other day "I think you are the most excited pregnant lady EVER." I think he might be right. I am super obsessed with everything that has to do with baby and I can't wait to have a little family!

Monday, September 17, 2012

Oh yeah...I'm pregnant

The beginning-Week 15
 A lot has happened since we announced that we are having a baby in February. I am a terrible journal writer and I need to document this pregnancy! Lets start from the beginning. So we found out I was pregnant back in May and after we found out a few days went by and I remember telling Justin, "I feel good!" Well, I spoke to quick because almost exactly one week after I took the test, I woke up feeling awful. I have felt nauseous before but nothing like this. I went to work and within an hour I was back home in bed wondering, how am I going to do this? I made it through few weeks and then I had my first Dr.'s appointment. At my appointment I told my doctor how I had been feeling and she gave me a prescription for nausea. I took the medicine twice a day for about 8 weeks. I helped but the nausea never completely went away. Throughout this time I kept telling myself that it was worth it and I would rather be sick and pregnant than not pregnant. This is something I have been wanting and praying for, for a long time. We got pregnant very quickly but we were waiting until the time was right for us. When we got married 2-1/2 years ago I wanted to start having kids but I knew it wasn't the right time yet. I waited patiently to finish school and pray about our timing. I was so happy and overjoyed to be pregnant but my feeling of sickness often made me feel negative and grumpy :( Once that time passed I was able to really enjoy the miracle that was happening inside my body.

 Weeks 15-18
 So anyway, the nausea passed around week 15 which is when we found out the gender of our little one. Yep, I am one of those girls who can't just wait til her regular OB appointment. I went somewhere to find out early and it was the best decision. ever. We are having a BOY. Now let me back up a little bit and say I was convinced we were having a girl. Not because of motherly intuition or anything but because people kept telling me they thought it was a girl and so a girl is all I kept imagining. I literally convinced myself that we were having a girl. All along, Justin disagreed with me and was persistent in saying we were having a boy. As soon as the little guy came up on the ultrasound I let out a little gasp. I could see his little man parts perfectly. He was laying there with his legs wide open! Justin literally said the words, "Is that a little wee wee I see?" The ultrasound technician laughed and said yes, this little guy is not shy at all. WHAT!!!!! I was shocked. Justin had a silly grin plastered on his face for the next 24 hours. He was so happy! It was such a fun day. After that I started feeling better, not amazing but better. I could wake up in the morning and open the fridge?? Yeah, I couldn't open the fridge in the morning for like 4 months. I would smell something and run out of the kitchen to you know what in the toilet...ew. Anyway, I have had such a fun time buying little clothes and sewing bibs and burp rags for our little guy. I'm starting to get my energy back but for the most part, I'm tired a lot. Right about week 17 I started feeling back pain. I told my Dr. and he suggested a few things but none of them seem to be helping. At my job, I sit in a chair ALL DAY. My uterus puts so much pressure on my tailbone that I end up getting up to walk around like every 20 minutes. All the tiredness and pain aside something awesome also happened at week 17!!! I felt some movement. It was very subtle and it would only happen if I would lay really still on my back or on my side. The first time it happened I doubted whether or not that was it but the next night I felt the same thing and I knew it was him! After about a week of tiny flutters, I was sitting in my chair at work when I felt a big kick right at my belly button. I was so surprised and I was on the phone so I couldn't exactly jump for joy but man was I excited. Ever since that day the little kicks have gotten more frequent and they have gotten stronger. As I lay here writing this, I can feel lots and lots of little movement going on in there. The movement makes it feel so real. This bring me up to this week, which is week 19. I have an ultrasound on Friday and I can't wait to see the little guy again.

 Sometimes during this pregnancy I have felt like my body is not my own and it's true. I have no control over making this little boy. Heavenly Father made my body so it knows exactly what to do. Our bodies are amazing and I am trying my best to enjoy this experience. I feel so grateful that Heavenly Father trusts Justin and me enough to take care of one of his children. Sometimes I feel inadequate and then I remember that I am not alone. I have a loving Heavenly Father and a wonderful husband who will be there with me every step of the way. I will write more later and post some pictures :)