Oh yeah...I'm pregnant

The beginning-Week 15
 A lot has happened since we announced that we are having a baby in February. I am a terrible journal writer and I need to document this pregnancy! Lets start from the beginning. So we found out I was pregnant back in May and after we found out a few days went by and I remember telling Justin, "I feel good!" Well, I spoke to quick because almost exactly one week after I took the test, I woke up feeling awful. I have felt nauseous before but nothing like this. I went to work and within an hour I was back home in bed wondering, how am I going to do this? I made it through few weeks and then I had my first Dr.'s appointment. At my appointment I told my doctor how I had been feeling and she gave me a prescription for nausea. I took the medicine twice a day for about 8 weeks. I helped but the nausea never completely went away. Throughout this time I kept telling myself that it was worth it and I would rather be sick and pregnant than not pregnant. This is something I have been wanting and praying for, for a long time. We got pregnant very quickly but we were waiting until the time was right for us. When we got married 2-1/2 years ago I wanted to start having kids but I knew it wasn't the right time yet. I waited patiently to finish school and pray about our timing. I was so happy and overjoyed to be pregnant but my feeling of sickness often made me feel negative and grumpy :( Once that time passed I was able to really enjoy the miracle that was happening inside my body.

 Weeks 15-18
 So anyway, the nausea passed around week 15 which is when we found out the gender of our little one. Yep, I am one of those girls who can't just wait til her regular OB appointment. I went somewhere to find out early and it was the best decision. ever. We are having a BOY. Now let me back up a little bit and say I was convinced we were having a girl. Not because of motherly intuition or anything but because people kept telling me they thought it was a girl and so a girl is all I kept imagining. I literally convinced myself that we were having a girl. All along, Justin disagreed with me and was persistent in saying we were having a boy. As soon as the little guy came up on the ultrasound I let out a little gasp. I could see his little man parts perfectly. He was laying there with his legs wide open! Justin literally said the words, "Is that a little wee wee I see?" The ultrasound technician laughed and said yes, this little guy is not shy at all. WHAT!!!!! I was shocked. Justin had a silly grin plastered on his face for the next 24 hours. He was so happy! It was such a fun day. After that I started feeling better, not amazing but better. I could wake up in the morning and open the fridge?? Yeah, I couldn't open the fridge in the morning for like 4 months. I would smell something and run out of the kitchen to you know what in the toilet...ew. Anyway, I have had such a fun time buying little clothes and sewing bibs and burp rags for our little guy. I'm starting to get my energy back but for the most part, I'm tired a lot. Right about week 17 I started feeling back pain. I told my Dr. and he suggested a few things but none of them seem to be helping. At my job, I sit in a chair ALL DAY. My uterus puts so much pressure on my tailbone that I end up getting up to walk around like every 20 minutes. All the tiredness and pain aside something awesome also happened at week 17!!! I felt some movement. It was very subtle and it would only happen if I would lay really still on my back or on my side. The first time it happened I doubted whether or not that was it but the next night I felt the same thing and I knew it was him! After about a week of tiny flutters, I was sitting in my chair at work when I felt a big kick right at my belly button. I was so surprised and I was on the phone so I couldn't exactly jump for joy but man was I excited. Ever since that day the little kicks have gotten more frequent and they have gotten stronger. As I lay here writing this, I can feel lots and lots of little movement going on in there. The movement makes it feel so real. This bring me up to this week, which is week 19. I have an ultrasound on Friday and I can't wait to see the little guy again.

 Sometimes during this pregnancy I have felt like my body is not my own and it's true. I have no control over making this little boy. Heavenly Father made my body so it knows exactly what to do. Our bodies are amazing and I am trying my best to enjoy this experience. I feel so grateful that Heavenly Father trusts Justin and me enough to take care of one of his children. Sometimes I feel inadequate and then I remember that I am not alone. I have a loving Heavenly Father and a wonderful husband who will be there with me every step of the way. I will write more later and post some pictures :)