This is pretty much my journal

I use to be good at writing in my journal but one day I stopped and like any other habit, it was hard to start again. I start to feel guilty when I think about how poorly i've documented certain events in the last 3 years but it's okay because I just need to try harder! I'm at 23 weeks in my pregnancy now and things are moving along. I feel better than I did the first 17 weeks, I can tell ya that. It's weird because in the moment you feel like you are so sick you might die but looking back on it, I'm like was I really that sick? It feels like a dream and I guess it will be a re-occuring dream because of all the kiddos I want :) 

Today I was laying on the couch (shocker) and I had my hand on my stomach, which is where it is most of the time. I love feeling kicks so my hand seems to be on my belly all the time. Anyway today I was laying there with the hand on the belly and no joke, I felt a body part. Something tangible, like a foot or a hand or something came to the surface and punched/kicked my hand. I kinda freaked out a little cause little kicks are cute and all but I felt a body part!! It was different. It's hard to explain but it was like he was just saying hi. It's so weird and great and awesome at the same time. Gosh I love that little guy. 

The other day J and I were in the temple and I started crying uncontrollably and Justin must have thought I was losing it. I was sitting there thinking about the little man and how much I love him when I get intensely emotional. I can't imagine how much I am going to love him when he is in my arms and I can actually hold him. This whole parent thing is making me nervous and excited. Welp, it's Friday night and I have a date with a handsome guy who got a haircut today :)