Today...

Dear Baby,

Today I drove past the hospital where you will be born and I cried. I cried because it's getting so close and I cried because that it the place where I get to meet you. All I have to do is think about that moment when I meet you, and I get emotional. These hormones are CRAZY. I had to pull myself together for a Dr.'s appointment. When my Dr. was checking your heart rate, you had the hiccups and you were moving! Along with my Dr.'s appointment, I had an ultrasound today. I felt like I was spying on you in there. You were just hanging out with your hands over your face. You refused to move those hands so that I could see that cute face of yours. The ultrasound showed that you have hair!! Also, they estimated that you weigh 6 lbs 4 oz, as of today. So by the time we meet you should be about 7-1/2 lbs. You have your head facing down and you look pretty comfy in there. 

I can't even put into words how I feel these days. I hope that one day you will read these little letters and know how much your Dad and I love you. I hope you will read them and see how excited we were and how much we anticipated your arrival into our family. The nesting has begun and all I want to do is wash little clothes and organize all your stuff. It's so fun for me to hold up each little onesie and picture you in it. I almost have everything you need and I'm slowing packing our bags for the hospital. 3 weeks will go by fast and then you will be here. You will be ours forever. 

Baby Shower

On Saturday I had a baby shower! It was seriously something you would find in a magazine or on pinterest. It was PERFECT. I loved every little detail. The theme was little bow ties and I was dying over all the decorations. There were little cookies shaped as bow ties and diapers made into bow ties. Ah! I wish it could have lasted forever. There was a craft in a separate room. Everyone made little onesies with bow ties on them. They are iron-on and the cutest thing ever. We hung them up as everyone finished. Oh and in that picture of my mom and I...don't mind my extremely swollen face. Yikes! I am officially swollen in my face, fingers and toes. Basically I have one pair of shoes that still fit so yeah I will be wearing flip-flops for the next 3 weeks. The last picture is my nephew, Braden, and my best friend's baby, Emma. They were so cute together. They both grabbed on to each other's shirts and wouldn't let go. Anyway, it was such a fun day and it was all thanks to my Aunt, my cousin, my bff Allie and lots of other helpers :) I can't say thank you enough. 

I think I am officially on the home stretch. 3 weeks and 3 days until my due date. I still feel pretty good! The only issue I'm having is SLEEP! I can't sleep. I wake up at least 3 times every night to use the restroom and when I lay back down, I have a hard time shutting my mind off. I am feeling excited/nervous/anxious for the next few weeks. What is going to happen? Will I go into labor early or will I go way past my due date?! The unknown is what worries me. I know everything will be okay but I just want it to happen! Before I know it, I am going to be a Mom. Justin and I will be in charge of a sweet baby, straight from heaven. I can't even imagine what it will feel like. I just know I am ready. I went and got my stroller and car seat today. It is starting to get real around here and I am ecstatic for the moment when I meet my little guy. Hopefully sooner rather than later :) 

Dear Baby

Dear Baby,

The Holidays flew by and I am 34 weeks along, which means I will be seeing you in just 6 short weeks. There's about 42 days left in my countdown and I remember when I was counting down from like 215..! We went to Colorado for Christmas and I was kind of nervous you would make a surprise appearance. We were up in the mountains above Durango, Colorado. It snowed a TON while we were there and I kept having dreams that my water broke and we couldn't make it down the mountain haha. Luckily, that didn't happen. Every week goes by and I become more and more anxious for your arrival. I don't know what to expect and the unknown can be scary. All I know is that I love you so much already. Everyone around me is having their babies and I can't help but wonder what my experience will be like. 

As of lately, you have taken up permanent residence in my left hip. At my most recent ultrasound I was told that you have your head really low, which is awesome, but I swear you jam that head of yours into my left hip! It feels so uncomfortable sometimes that I have to stand up. Your movements are much bigger and slower lately. I feel like you are running out of room! You seem to get the hiccups at least twice a day and I love it when you do. I love feeling the soft, slow rhythm of them and knowing that it's you! I've been feeling great. I am definitely more clumsy and I have to be careful about going up and down stairs. Overall, your Daddy and I are beyond excited and anxious for your arrival into our family.

Love always,

Mom and Dad

"I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as you're living, my baby you'll be"