Baby Shower

On Saturday I had a baby shower! It was seriously something you would find in a magazine or on pinterest. It was PERFECT. I loved every little detail. The theme was little bow ties and I was dying over all the decorations. There were little cookies shaped as bow ties and diapers made into bow ties. Ah! I wish it could have lasted forever. There was a craft in a separate room. Everyone made little onesies with bow ties on them. They are iron-on and the cutest thing ever. We hung them up as everyone finished. Oh and in that picture of my mom and I...don't mind my extremely swollen face. Yikes! I am officially swollen in my face, fingers and toes. Basically I have one pair of shoes that still fit so yeah I will be wearing flip-flops for the next 3 weeks. The last picture is my nephew, Braden, and my best friend's baby, Emma. They were so cute together. They both grabbed on to each other's shirts and wouldn't let go. Anyway, it was such a fun day and it was all thanks to my Aunt, my cousin, my bff Allie and lots of other helpers :) I can't say thank you enough. 

I think I am officially on the home stretch. 3 weeks and 3 days until my due date. I still feel pretty good! The only issue I'm having is SLEEP! I can't sleep. I wake up at least 3 times every night to use the restroom and when I lay back down, I have a hard time shutting my mind off. I am feeling excited/nervous/anxious for the next few weeks. What is going to happen? Will I go into labor early or will I go way past my due date?! The unknown is what worries me. I know everything will be okay but I just want it to happen! Before I know it, I am going to be a Mom. Justin and I will be in charge of a sweet baby, straight from heaven. I can't even imagine what it will feel like. I just know I am ready. I went and got my stroller and car seat today. It is starting to get real around here and I am ecstatic for the moment when I meet my little guy. Hopefully sooner rather than later :) 

Dear Baby

Dear Baby,

The Holidays flew by and I am 34 weeks along, which means I will be seeing you in just 6 short weeks. There's about 42 days left in my countdown and I remember when I was counting down from like 215..! We went to Colorado for Christmas and I was kind of nervous you would make a surprise appearance. We were up in the mountains above Durango, Colorado. It snowed a TON while we were there and I kept having dreams that my water broke and we couldn't make it down the mountain haha. Luckily, that didn't happen. Every week goes by and I become more and more anxious for your arrival. I don't know what to expect and the unknown can be scary. All I know is that I love you so much already. Everyone around me is having their babies and I can't help but wonder what my experience will be like. 

As of lately, you have taken up permanent residence in my left hip. At my most recent ultrasound I was told that you have your head really low, which is awesome, but I swear you jam that head of yours into my left hip! It feels so uncomfortable sometimes that I have to stand up. Your movements are much bigger and slower lately. I feel like you are running out of room! You seem to get the hiccups at least twice a day and I love it when you do. I love feeling the soft, slow rhythm of them and knowing that it's you! I've been feeling great. I am definitely more clumsy and I have to be careful about going up and down stairs. Overall, your Daddy and I are beyond excited and anxious for your arrival into our family.

Love always,

Mom and Dad

"I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as you're living, my baby you'll be" 

You guys...

Today I had an ultrasound and a Dr. appt.

At my 20 week ultrasound they saw that my placenta was kinda hanging low. They called it "marginal previa." Um scary. So they said oh we will check it in the 3rd trimester and make sure it moved up like it is supposed to and today I had the ultrasound because I am 30 weeks now.

IT MOVED UP! YAY! 

I was convinced that I had placenta previa and that I would have to have a c-section. But I am happy to say that the placenta looks good and our little guy is getting pretty big. He is already 3lbs 7oz. Why does that seem so massive to me?? I understand that he will be much bigger when he comes out but every baby app that I have says oh the baby is almost 3lbs this week. Try 3lbs 7oz! His head is facing down and apparently he has long legs. When she measured his legs they were measuring at 33 weeks?! Maybe he will be really long. We will have to see. Overall, she said he is measuring about a week early but that could just mean he will be big. AH! 

Look at those lips. Baby, oh baby! I love you so much already. You were sleeping during the ultrasound and apparently you sleep like your Daddy, with your mouth wide open. I am getting anxious for February, when I can hold you in my arms and kiss those big beautiful lips. 

So much to be thankful for

Thanksgiving was spent in California with my family and we ate OUTSIDE! It was amazing. This Thanksgiving I have so much to be thankful for. Mainly a wonderful husband and a baby on the way! The list could go on for days. The night of Thanksgiving we went out shopping for black friday. I was at the mall at Midnight with all the other teenagers/crazies. I got all baby stuff. It was so much fun! We went shopping on actual black friday too. I am officially on a shopping fast for a few weeks. It was a good one and now I'm in the third trimester! AH! I'll update with pics soon but I'm feeling great and getting anxious for February. 

A letter

Dear Baby, 

We are expecting your arrival in appx. 13 weeks but I wouldn't mind if you came a little early. Not too early, but maybe like a week :) You are so incredibly active inside my tummy, and your Daddy actually asked me the other day...is this normal?? You are constantly moving and shaking. We are pretty positive we have a name for you but I'm pretty fickle these days and you never know if I might change my mind. Your Daddy is a full-time student and the other day he said something about how school and getting a job and providing for us is what constantly is on his mind. I proudly stated that baby was on my mind 24/7 because you are! Sometimes I drift off to sleep thinking about you and even dreaming about you. My favorite dream so far has been when I dreamt that me, you and your daddy were lying in bed snuggling. Daddy and I were playing with your little toes and little fingers. I dream about the day you will come into our lives and sometimes I wake up feeling anxious. I want to meet you right now! But I understand that you need to fatten up before we can meet you. 

The other night your Daddy was talking to you really close to my belly. You were being kinda shy but as soon as he started talking you were kicking and moving around like a mad man! In a way, I think I'll miss having you inside of me. We pray every night that you are growing and developing just the way you should. We love you so much, already and can't wait to meet you. 

xoxo

Lake Arrowhead + a baby blessing

We had another family fun day and this time we went up to Lake Arrowhead for the day. It was my nephew Braden's first family fun day and all day I kept thinking, what did we do before he was born?? Seriously though, why are babies so entertaining? All day we were oohhing and aaahing at the littlest things he would do. On our walk in Lake Arrowhead we had to make a little pit stop to change a diaper. I could not stop laughing at his little bum up in the air like that. On Sunday we had Braden's baby blessing and had lunch in the park. It was a fun weekend and I can't wait for Thanksgiving when we can all be together again! 

Nights like last night

Yesterday was one of those days. I woke up feeling blah. I was having all sorts of crazy negative thoughts about myself and others. Since being pregnant, these days come often. You see, I am one of those people who is very affected by hormones. I had to stop taking birth control because it was making  me act like a psycho person. I am already very emotional and when my hormones aren't in check, it can get kinda crazy over here. Anyway, yesterday was just one of those days. J was at school and work and I was moping around like a bum. As luck would have it, my husband is very intuitive. I swear the minute we wake up in the morning, he just knows. He knows to be extra sensitive towards me and he knows to just shrug off the ludicrous comments I make. I held it in all day until J got home from work. I'm sure when he got home from work he wasn't exactly looking forward to a blubbering wife who was blubbering about nothing, literally, but you would never tell that this was the case. He just let me cry and talk and talk and talk through my crying. He laid there and held me even though I knew he was exhausted and ready for bed. He rubbed my back and held my hand until I fell asleep. It was nights like last night when I go to bed thinking that I have the perfect man for me. My mom warned him before we got married (this literally happened) that I am a bit hard to handle but he picked me anyway and I'm really glad he did. I don't know what I would do without this man. I guess you could say I'm starting off the month of November feeling very grateful. 

And oh what a Daddy he will be :)